Today was tough…

The day my little man Abram came into this world all I could think about was soaking up all the little moments and not letting him grow up to quickly. I took thousands of photos and tried freezing every moment possible. We spent so many days and nights together, he is for sure my little night owl. He was my first baby and I never wanted that phase to be over with. I would think about the day he would be old enough to go to school, to play sports, to make new friends…. but all that just seemed so far away. Until today!

Today was Kindergarten registration and boy was it hard for this Momma!! Call me crazy… but I cried before, during, and after! They all told me that it’s completely normal to be emotional and that he will be okay…. that comment doesn’t help me at all. I did not need the confirmation at that moment that he doesn’t need me every second of every day anymore.

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Abram and I have talked so much about this moment for months and he was so excited about it! He was so brave, kind, and outgoing…. everything that I pray daily for him to be.

Ya know… The past few months all I could think about was keeping my children home and homeschooling them. I wanted to keep them away from all things evil and mean. I will say this is something that is still on my heart and if God leads me in that direction, I will go! However, seeing Abram so excited and ready to start this journey made me feel so much better. It also helps knowing that God has got my little man no matter where he is! I know if I continue to do my job, that God will continue to do his and protect little Abram. This world may be evil and mean and disruptive, but we have got to raise our children to be difference makers and givers and friends!

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So prayers for this Momma would be appreciated and any advice for helping me transition is very welcome!!! I’m still a hot mess nearly 12 hours later!