Being Present…

Several months ago I decided to become more present and involved in the moment I am in. Every single moment. I know that sounds a little cliche because like you’re obviously present wherever you are, but are you really…?

You see having two toddlers is a hand full. Every single time I turn around I hear “Mom watch this!”, “Mom do this”, “Mom lets have a dance party!”, “Mom lets make a craft!”, “Mom come help me with……..” To the point some days I think it may be best for my sanity to change my name! But then I realize even though I am very involved in Abram and Ellie’s life and I was able to stay at home with them for the first several years… they still want me to be present.

I’m not going to sugar coat it, some nights I need a 3 hour bath to detox from a day of chaos. But I wouldn’t, for a second, change a thing… In 15 years my youngest will be 18!!!! Like what?? Yeah 18 years young! And I know that time is going to fly by.

So while I still have them yelling at me to see the fort they built, the play dough treasure they made, or the city they built out of everything possible in their rooms… I will put everything else aside and be present!

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For those that know me fairly well know how hard it is for me to look past the mess. Friends would tease me and ask me if my house was even lived in because I was so particular (this is not something I’m extremely proud of because I would literally lose sleep over it). BUT if you saw my house right now you would be so proud (I wish I could insert a laughing emoji here). I finally figured out that it’s okay to have a few dirty dished in the sink sometimes. Maybe a pile of dirty clothes that should have been washed a week ago. Or maybe a bar that’s covered in crafts, snacks, and baby dolls!

Guys! My house is lived in now, I am more willing to be present now, my kiddos are always full of life and smiles, and I am finally feeling like through it all I can breathe. I can breathe because I have become content in what I have to offer. Some days it’s a lot and some days it’s a little, but I’m present!